Where have I been?

2010 May 11
by Hedon

Mucking around hip-deep in the pits of hell … thanks for asking.

I’ll give the short version of the tale so y’all won’t be bored to death. Well… you may remember that back at the beginning of March we finally fulfilled our long-held plan (dream) and purchased a beautiful new Freightliner tractor. It still hasn’t hauled a single load. Yep… it’s just been sitting in the driveway looking beautiful and sucking cash out of us every month. I don’t think I ever mentioned it at the time, but we also bought a trailer in April which is also sitting around empty and useless. Sigh.

Not that the truck or trailer are actually useless… that would be me. We’re not sure exactly when it happened, but I injured the hell out of myself probably sometime in January. It was one of those things that start slow and proceed to get worse week after week to the point that you realize you are only about a week or so from being bed-bound. Agonizing pain. Legs virtually useless. Spirit crushed.

For the longest time we thought it was some sort of injury to my knees or legs as it was so hard to walk. Naturally when we left USXpress we lost our insurance and we didn’t get the COBRA insurance because we thought it was too expensive. So I didn’t want to go to a doctor and create a pre-existing condition. Also, I didn’t have a lot of faith in the medical community in this instance… I could envision MRIs and exploratory surgery on my knees and god knows what all. Horrifying. Instead, we searched the internet and asked everyone we knew about the situation and came up with what seemed like a good plan to get me back on my feet. We were wrong. Things just kept getting worse. Less mobility. Every step more painful. Getting in the truck literally impossible.

Then I remembered that our cousin Ingrid had mentioned her best friend had gone through something similar and had gotten it fixed. I made an appointment with an excellent Chiropractor/Physical Therapist that Stace’s step-dad uses. First meeting he took x-rays and said, “Oh well there’s your problem” while pointing at the film. It was never my legs — it was my lower back the whole time. The x-rays were so obvious even I could read them and see the problem.

So my treatment/rehab began about two weeks ago. What they don’t tell you when you start something like that is that it is going to hurt a hell of a lot worse before it gets better. Well… I mean he did tell me that… but I didn’t think anything could hurt worse so I guess I didn’t take him seriously. I was obviously mistaken. Monday, Wednesday, Friday… treatments from hell. Tuesday, Thursday… stretching exercises from hell at home. Weekends… more stretching… more hell. Sigh.

During this entire time, Stace has had to do everything around the house. I mean literally everything that needed to be done around the house. All the shopping. All the cooking. The cleaning. The laundry. The errands. She also got the new truck all decorated and homey and loaded up and ready to roll all by herself. Not to mention waiting on me like I’m some 90 year old woman who can’t do much more for herself than wipe her own ass. Sigh. Honestly… she has been amazing. Not one complaint has passed her lips. I don’t know how I would have made it through this without her.

And I am making it through. For the first time in a very long time I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. The pain has lessened significantly. Although I’m still using a cane, I’m walking better and able to do more for myself. The doctor seems to think I will only need another week or two of treatments and I’ll be ready to roll down the highways again. It feels like he may be right. Whew! Can’t wait to hit the road… if nothing else because we never planned to spend six months at home so this whole episode has brought us to the brink of financial disaster. All that planning and waiting and saving and we’re not in any better shape than if we had just flung caution to the wind and bought a truck years ago without any financial safety net. On the other hand, I guess we should just consider ourselves lucky that we had the savings that have made it possible to survive for six months with no income and still buy the truck and trailer. See… I’m able to look at the bright side again… that’s surely a sign I’m finally getting better. :)

So anyway, that’s about all there is to the story. I haven’t been around simply because I’ve been so angry, bitter and depressed that I haven’t had anything to say that any of y’all would want to read… trust me. But I can finally see a universe in which I am back to my goofy pain-free self in the near future. Expect more blathering in the near future.

14 Responses
  1. 2010 May 11
    Belledog permalink

    Welcome back, Hedon, and sorry to hear that you have been in pain. Glad you are on the mend, though.

    Promise me you will get some health insurance through OOIDA or however you can. Too many risks out there, and you are precious cargo.

    Kudos to Stace, whom everyone knew was a keeper before.

    So glad to see you back, and hope you’re mobile and driving soon as you can.

  2. 2010 May 11
    Billy Joe Bob permalink

    Heh heh heh. Wiping your own ass.

  3. 2010 May 11

    I was getting worried about you two. Glad to hear you’re making headway with your back – that crap is no fun at all. I’m looking forward to seeing the Hagmobile on our nation’s highways fer sure.

  4. 2010 May 11

    I’m so happy to hear from you. Sorry to hear of your health problems, though. Old(er) age is most definitely not for sissies. And a thousand thanks to Stace for keeping everything together during your down time.

    You are sounding like yourself again, Hedon. And you two are brilliant to have saved enough to deal with this.

    Watch out truckers, the Hags are back.

  5. 2010 May 11

    I’m SO glad you’re back! I’m sorry to hear that you’ve hit some really hard patches…damn. When I spoke to you, I didn’t think it was THAT bad. So do I need to break a leg or something to get Ed to wait on me hand and foot?? LOL

    Can’t wait to read your latest posts…so good to have you back. Keep us posted with what’s going on. Email or call!

    Also…give our thanks to Stace for taking such good care of you!

  6. 2010 May 11
    chaos permalink

    You never told me you were using a cane. or that you couldn’t get in the truck any more. ….. I just want to say I love you. And I’m glad you are doing better. And I love Aunt Stacey, for being the truly wonderful person that she is. : )

  7. 2010 May 12
    Trish permalink

    *SO* glad you got to a chiropractor. years ago I blew out 2 discs in my back and could barely walk without using “4 letter unfriendlies” let alone breathe. The regular doc gave me 20% chance that the surgery they were suggesting would help me to feel any better and to be in less pain that massive amounts of valium & vicodin were able to do. A friend took me to the chiro. It was painful, it was not instant, but I am better. There are still some issues with my leg and back, but I work out 3-5 times a week at the gym, do at least 12k steps a day and am NOT in a wheelchair, as the regular doc said I’d be for the rest of my life, even with the surgery they suggested. I see the chiro 2x a week, but could survive with 1x. Do whatever exercises they suggest to improve your situation, make SURE the new truck has adjustable fantastic back support AND support for your feet. I found when I moved the seat up in my vehicle, it improved my back. And, think about some extra pillows to help you sleep–small one between your knees, one to hug…pretty much support you properly. It WILL get better…give it time and breathe!

  8. 2010 May 12

    we are shut down in wyoming in a winter storm but seeing your posting has me smiling so bright that it’s sure to melt this stupid snow!!!…i had been on the verge of calling again to check up on you guys…..so sorry to hear about all the pain you’ve had, but so glad to know that you are truly on the mend this time!!…we have all been sending all the good karma (and yes, even a few prayers thrown in!) your way…..please keep following orders and take care of yourself….as for stace taking such good care of you….well, i never expected anything less….when you’re really a team, not just in the truck but in life, that’s what you do….you step up…..i know it hasn’t been easy for either of you, but you’re getting thru this and it is a testament to how strong you both are!….we love you guys and are so anxious to read some road blather once again.

  9. 2010 May 12
    limericc permalink

    I’m thrilled you are on the mend. Watch out world… The Hags are BACK !!
    Big Kudos for Saint Stacey.

  10. 2010 May 12

    It is good to see that you are all right over there. Just when I was really getting into your adventures, you stopped blogging! WTF?!?! Just kidding! I am both sorry to see that you were hurt and glad to see that you found the problem and are fixing it.

  11. 2010 May 12

    Oh, the back pain and using a cane is no fun. I usually wind up on the cane for about a week a couple of times a year. I’ll just turn or bend funny and bam! Instant old lady. So far, I’ve managed to work my own kinks out over the space of a week to a week and a half, but I’ll remember the chiropracter thing if it ever gets really bad.

    I”m glad you’re recovering and that you’ll be on the road in your beautiful new truck in the not so distant future! Stacey is a gem for looking after everything when you hurt too much to think!

  12. 2010 May 13

    Thanks guys! It’s good to finally be feeling more like myself… if not physically yet at least mentally.

    Oh, and Stace says to quit making her sound like some sort of Saint. She points out that it’s not like we have five kids to take care of or anything. She adds that if we did I would probably be eating peanut butter for every meal, wearing dirty laundry and fetching my own Diet Coke even if I had to crawl into the kitchen to get it. :)

    I didn’t say it but I figure if we had five kids to look after one of them could be fetching the Diet Coke for me.

  13. 2010 May 13
    chaos permalink

    Could always lend you the grandchild. she is getting good at fetching. Just have to buy smaller bottles, and say it ALOT, till she got the idea. : ) Reminds me of fetching Diet Coke when i was a kid. lol

  14. 2010 May 22

    I’m greatly relieved to hear things are starting to look up. Bless Stace for dropping us a line to let us know you were under the weather. It’s such a b*#&$ when your health is not the best – so doubly glad to hear you are on the mend!

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